Random

It has been a very long time since i've written random posts anywhere! Gosh I'm so sleepy!!!!

A couple of years ago i decided not to write and I actually stopped writing. Funny how idle I have been. Drifting around aimlessly. Work seemed meaningless, life seemed meaningless and everything meaningful lost all its meaning. I now udnerstand that whatever it is, writing is something i should hold on to. It's who I am. It shapes me in ways nothing in the whole world can do. It's weird that ever since I stopped writing, I have become hostle and intimidating. Why? that's beyond me. I can't explain it. 2 years ago I wrote the following.

Your heart and my cup of coffee taste
the same. Bitter and black. So hard to live
without. And I can no longer sleep.
Everytime I think of you I can no longer sleep.

Let me try fixing that...

Your heart and my cup of coffee taste
the same. Bitter and black. So hard to live
without. And I can no longer sleep.
Everytime I think of you I can no longer sleep.
You engulf me with so much darkness,
I can no longer tell if light exists. You touch me
with your freezing fingertips and I find myself half
awake, because the bitterness is so strong.
So hard to ignore, and all you do, is knock me
down to sink lower and find it hard to live
without your bitterness. Just like living
without my cup of coffee. Your heart and my
cup of coffee are just the same. Dark, Bitter,
so hard to live without. And I wonder if I can
get over you. I wonder if I could